Reading for Me

The Books I Have Read…..Just for Me

#15: A Soprano on Her Hand (Eloise Ristad)

It’s taken a few days to actually get around to writing this review of a book that had long been on my TBR, but I never found the time to pull the trigger. Now that I have read the book, I understand what the fuss has always been about and why it is treasured and lauded by so many musicians. It’s definitely a book that I anticipate revisiting again in the future.

A Soprano on Her Hand is not necessarily intended to be read from cover to cover. It is better described as a collection of essays reflecting on issues that are common to performers of all kinds — performance anxiety, unwanted tension, dialogues with inner judges, forgetting the joy of playing. Ristad writes in a humorous manner balanced with musical authority that is very assessable by all readers. In many ways, the book reminds me of The Inner Game of Music by Barry Green.

I’m glad I read the book. I’ll have to revisit and meditate on many of the ideas presented here in the months ahead. For now, I’m looking forward to getting back to my regular reading of fiction.

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The View From My Reading Chair – July 3

This week, my reading life took a different turn. I found myself needing to think a bit more academically since a due date was leering that required submission of syllabi for upcoming courses. Since I was thinking about music more than I have for the past few months, it seemed appropriate to do some reading in the field. My intention was to slowly read through the music book while I focused my attention on a new novel. My interest took a different approach and I have been reading A Soprano on Her Head by Eloise Ristad monogamously this week.

I became aware of A Soprano on Her Head in graduate school in a pedagogy course devoted to group piano instruction. I have long intended to read the book, but never took the plunge. When I found a copy in a secondhand bookstore earlier this year, I purchased the book and knew that I would read it soon. I expected to find something very similar to the more familiar The Inner Game of Music. While there are certainly similarities, I find Ristad’s work much more witty and applicable as a performer and teacher. I would have liked to have read more this week, but I found myself pausing frequently as I read to consider concepts and reflect on the implications Ristad’s words could have on my own playing as well as that of my students. It has also influenced an upcoming lecture that I am preparing for piano teachers.

I am just nearing the mid-point of the book. I hope to finish my reading of A Soprano on Her Head this week before moving to a contemporary novel that should be arriving in the mail in the coming days.

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#14: After the End (Clare Mackintosh)

Let’s just start with the most important statement that this review will contain. READ THIS BOOK! This book was a fast read that was thought provoking and addressed contemporary issues without hitting you over the head with a clear opinion.

After the End tells the story of Max and Pip, a couple living in England. Their only child, Dylan, will soon turn three years old — hopefully. Dylan is currently in the Pediatric ICU as a result of complications from a brain tumor. After multiple surgeries and chemotherapy, the doctors have discovered that the remaining portion of the tumor is growing. Sadly, they do not recommend further treatment and ask Max and Pip to make an impossible decision. Do they continue to seek treatment that might prolong Dylan’s life for a short while or do they simply offer palliative care and allow the child to die? The doctors have made it clear that should Dylan continue to live, he will have very little function, if any. He will not walk or feed himself. It is doubtful that he will ever clearly communicate his wishes or pains. He will not regain control of his bladder or bowels. Faced with the question that has no obvious answer, Max and Pip find themselves on opposite sides — unable to agree on the best course of action to take for young Dylan. As a result, the case will be taken before family court.

In a startling turn at the novel’s mid-point, Mackintosh produces two subsequent chapters that have the opposite decisions handed down by the court. For the remainder of the story, the author masterfully explores what *might* happen to Dylan and his parents in both scenarios. When I first encountered these chapters in the novel, I was confused and uncertain of how this was going to play out. Soon it became clear that Mackintosh was showing the reader alternate endings to the story. Through this unusual storytelling device, After the End points out that mistakes, suffering, and joy result along both paths and that it is absolutely impossible to truly know what the best choice is in every situation. One simply must consider the facts as presented at the moment, listen to your heart and gut-instinct, and follow a path. Then, we simply must travel the chosen path and not torment ourselves by constantly looking back and second-guessing our choices.

At the conclusion of the novel, Mackintosh shares some insight in her author’s note that I think readers need to know before beginning the journey. While the novel is completely a work of fiction, Mackintosh and her husband faced a similar situation in their own lives when their child became gravely ill; the Mackintoshes were forced to face a decision similar to that of Max and Pip. While Candace and her husband were in total agreement about their decision, I personally believe that her experience allowed her to write the story of Pip and Max with an unmatched level of truthfulness, compassion, and empathy for all characters in her novel while carefully navigating the waters of the quality of life versus quantity of life debate.

If you are ready to ask yourself repeatedly how you would handle such a challenging and unimaginably difficult situation, journey with Pip and Max through the pages of After the End. Once you reach the end of the novel, these characters will stay with you long after the final page and continue to give you much to think about and consider.

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#13: Mad at the World: A Life of John Steinbeck (William Souder)

After a long wait, I finally read a book over the summer break! I’m thrilled to say that the drought is over and I am once again enjoying my time with my nose in a book. What got me back into the grove? This amazing biography of American author, John Steinbeck.

Mad at the World is not a dry biography at all. Souder examines Steinbeck’s life and world in a conversational manner set against riveting explorations of world events. It is so important that we never forget that artists — authors, composers, painters — are never creating their works in a vacuum. The impact of their surroundings and world events cannot be ignored. Souder did an excellent job of merging the two sides of this complex reality that left this reader wanting even more.

Souder’s biography is not just about Steinbeck’s life and relationships. Souder examines each of the author’s works, providing a brief synopsis of the overall plot without disclosing too many spoilers. I have read many of Steinbeck’s works over the years, but it was nice to have an introduction to some of the lesser known works as well. I’ve added a few of them to my TBR as a result of reading this work. I especially found the discussions between Steinbeck and the staff of Viking Publishing quite interesting.

A fascinating read that has me thinking about future reading projects. I especially found myself interested in learning more about the presidencies of Hoover and FDR. I’ve considered beginning to read biographies of the 20th century men who have held this highest political office. Obviously, the other potential project is reading more biographies of major American authors. While this definitely intrigues me, I can’t come up with a way to put a measurable outline on the project. I need to know where the “end” is going to be in order to declare the project completed.

What’s next on the agenda? I’m moving back into fiction for a bit. I’ve picked up a paperback that grabbed my attention this spring and am now fully engrossed in After the End by Clare Mackintosh. I’ll let you know how it goes!

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The View From My Reading Chair – June 20

Hello, my dear readers. It has been a little while since I have last posted. Truthfully, reading has been a challenge this summer. As soon as the school year was completed, I did not want to pick up another book. I wanted to do nothing but sit around and mindlessly think about absolutely nothing. The impact of the COVID-19 pandemic on my emotions seem to have found their full expression in my reading life.

I managed to read a book immediately after the semester ended as I waited to leave west Texas for the summer. Since returning to my parents’ home, I have read nothing else. I have tried numerous books, but nothing captured my imagination. I have shifted from fiction to self-help and humor.

Last week, after nearly a month without picking up a book, I finally found something in my TBR that I could imagine reading. What was the genre to rescue me from my reading drought? Biography….a huge departure from my normal reading fare. I’m reading William Sounder’s Mad at the World: A Life of John Steinbeck. I have found the combination of historical events and literary analysis fascinating. (I suppose my love for American literature of the early 20th century is healing my reading life.)

Sadly, I cannot say that reading is a natural occurrence again. I am not finding myself longing to pick up my book throughout the day. Instead, I am setting daily reading goals and treating the reading as an appointment to keep. So I’m progressing slower than I had hoped, but I am thrilled with the fact that I am resuming my reading. As I continue to keep my daily “appointment,” I’m finding that I am looking forward to the mental stimulation that is ahead. Since I know there is a reasonable goal, the work of reading doesn’t seem as demanding. I suppose I need to subconsciously give myself permission to read at a slower pace than normal.

Despite the slower pace, I’m hoping to finish reading the Steinbeck biography this week. Hopefully by then, I will have found something new to grab my attention and continue my return to the love of reading.

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#12: The Bookshop on the Corner (Jenny Colgan)

Once I returned from my mini-vacation at the beginning of the week, I was ready to read something light. It was the beginning of summer break, after all! That’s when I fell into The Bookshop on the Corner and was immediately sucked into a charming story set in the Scottish highlands.

Nina finds herself in need of a new job now that the library she has served for many years has been closed, now serving patrons exclusively through technology. Rather than follow the safe path laid out before her, Nina decides to open a mobile bookstore and has found the perfect van — in Scotland!

While picking up the van and telling the locals about her plans for selling books on the move, she realizes that the people here in this quaint village are desperate for books now that their own library has been closed. Despite her efforts to return to her urban home, it seems as though fate is at work and Nina must remain in Scotland. The prospect of a little romance in Nina’s life does not negatively impact her decision either.

Filled with comedy and heart-warming connections, The Bookshop on the Corner is a charming novel that will leave the reader wanting more while reminding them of the magical power that can only be found in the pages of a good book. This book is the first in the author’s “Scottish Bookstore” series.

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#11: Crying in the H-Mart (Michelle Zauner)

Last weekend, I decided to take a few days and get away for a bit to rest now that the spring semester is over. I traveled to Dallas and decided to take a listen to Crying in the H-Mart as I drove. I laughed, I cried, and I thoroughly enjoyed this touching memoir about the relationship between a daughter and her mother that centered around food and her Korean heritage.

The “H-Mart” is a Korean market that suggests taking only the food that you can carry in your arms each visit. This ensures freshness and seems to be the preference of many Korean families as they prepare their meals. Michelle’s relationship with her parents — especially her mother — has been tumultuous, largely due to Michelle’s pursuit of a music career after college. When she receives word that her mother is suffering from Stage 4 pancreatic cancer, Michelle drops everything and returns home to Eugene, Oregon to assist her mother as she fights this dreaded disease. Crying in the H-Mart is largely an account of the mending of their relationship, their mutual struggles fighting (and ultimately losing) the cancer battle, Michelle’s search to remain connected to her Korean heritage, and a daughter’s desire to connect with her mother through food.

This memoir hit a little close to home. Recently, I have been very mindful of the fact that my mother will not be with me much longer — just due to the fact that she is aging, no health problems to be concerned about at the moment. Mom and I have largely connected during my adult years over books and food and trying out new recipes together. It is not what either of us expected, but it has become a very strong bond. Michelle’s account pointed out just how precious parental relationships are and shed some light on what life may be like when Mom is no longer with me. It is something that I think is healthy to think about from time to time.

Crying in the H-Mart is probably not what you are looking for if you are in search of a feel-good read. If you want to explore relationships and dealing with loss, this is an excellent book to add to your list. I highly recommend the audio book; Zauner’s inflection carries a sense of “knowing” that I don’t think a reader can fully comprehend simply by reading her words on the page. I also suggest you have a box of tissue nearby; driving while listening to this memoir is probably not the best idea. (I had to hit the pause button several times to collect myself and get out of heavy traffic before resuming my reading.)

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#10: The Last Coyote (Michael Connelly)

With the end of the semester, I found myself ready to dive back into some reading to kick the summer off in the right way. I decided that it was time to return to the world of Harry Bosch and see what was happening with my new favorite detective. Unfortunately, this installment in the Bosch series was challenging for me to read….but I’m not entirely certain why.

The story should have been enthralling to me. Bosch finds himself on administrative leave from the LAPD and takes a look at the archived murder book that contains the details of his mother’s unsolved murder many years ago. Clearly, Bosch is invested in seeing this case closed and is willing to go to any extreme necessary to find out the truth of what really happened. What I did not find as enjoyable was the exploration of Bosch’s inner struggle and the mandated visits to the psychologist to return to the police force. While those are typically themes that would be very interesting to me, in this case, I found them distracting from the case at hand.

The other BIG problem with this reading experience was hard to overlook. The Unger Library did not have a stand-alone copy of The Last Coyote. Instead, I read the novel from a large collection of the Bosch novels. It was impossible to find a way to hold the book at just the right angle without feeling as though I was putting undue pressure on my hands and wrists. Why do publishers think these massive volumes are good ideas for readers? My reading pace slowed significantly simply because I could not hold the book for long stretches of time. I think the physical discomfort put me in a bad mindset that carried over into my reading experience. Yes, I’m sure I could have found a copy of the e-book. I simply don’t enjoy reading on a digital device. Since I spend the majority of my work day with my iPad as an extension of my hand, I don’t find it relaxing to continue using it when I am trying to move into pleasure reading. I will occasionally read an e-book on the device, but it is typically something that I don’t want to admit that I’m reading or something that I don’t really care how long it takes me to work through.

Because of the extreme weight that accompanied The Last Coyote, I next reading adventures are in audio and paperback formats. I’m finding both of them enriching and a joy to read again. I may just have to pick up the digital version of the next Bosch novel to avoid spending any more time with this ENORMOUS book.

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Reading Update: Books 7-9

I have been very negligent in updating you on the books that I have been reading. The end of March and the first half of April was a busy time, but I managed to make my way through three novels. Here’s a quick update on what I’ve read and enjoyed.

#7: The Four Winds (Kristin Hannah)

I received this novel through the Book of the Month Club and it has been one of my favorite novels of the year so far. I cannot give it high enough praise! The story starts in rural west Texas (where I’m living these days) and progresses to the cotton fields of southern California in the height of the Dust Bowl and the Great Depression. In many ways, I think of it as a modern retelling of The Grapes of Wrath with female protagonists. Excellent novel that I did not want to put down!

#8: In Too Deep (Mary Connealy)

As the semester was winding down, I wanted to devote a few weeks of my reading to making more progress through My Library Shelf Project. This novel is the second volume of The Kincaid Brides series, a Christian romance series set in the wild west of Colorado. I found this volume much more entertaining than the first and did not feel as though it was quite as formulaic in its structure. I have one more book in the series on my shelf to read, so I’m hoping the writing continues to follow the upward trend. If you are looking for a quaint romance without the sultry sexiness on every page, this just might be the perfect book for you.

#9: The Concrete Blonde (Michael Connelly)

This is one of the hidden gems I have discovered on My Library Shelf. I am officially a fan of the Harry Bosch crime novels. This novel centers around the civil case resulting from Bosch’s killing of an unarmed suspect as he reached for his toupee hidden beneath his pillow. The event was alluded to in the earlier novels, so I was very happy to see the issue dealt with in greater detail and explained more fully in this novel. I began reading this novel just before bedtime and decided it was not a good nighttime choice. The story was too engaging and I simply did not want to wait to find out what happened next. I tore through this novel in just a few days and plan to pick up the next in the series tomorrow from the local library.

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#6: The Kindest Lie (Nancy Johnson)

I finally did it! I finished reading Nancy Johnson’s The Kindest Lie. Here’s hoping that my reading drought has finally come to an end.

Don’t misunderstand. My reading drought had nothing to do with the novel. I liked the book a lot and found the plot interesting and fun to read. I just did not want to sit in my corner chair with a book in hand. This weekend, I decided to simply put my nose back in the book, enjoy some good food, and read. I’m glad I did.

The Kindest Lie tells the story of Ruth, a successful African-American engineer living in Chicago with her husband during the election of President Obama. As the couple begin to discuss beginning a family, Ruth must confess that she was a teen mother, but does not know her child or where he ended up. Saddled with guilt, Ruth travels back to her Indiana home in an effort to discover the truth about her child. Along the way, she comes face to face with lies, deceptions, and cover-ups intended to keep her from discovering her child’s identity. What lies are we willing to tell in order to protect our children and allow them to fulfill their dreams? Is a lie ever an act of love? Johnson raises these and other interesting questions in her latest novel as it explores the meaning of parenthood and when a lie can be the kindest act of love a parent can express.

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